Still waiting....

I feel like I can't grieve because I'm still in that limbo state. Still waiting for my phone to ring and end this stupid joke. Who pretends that they're dead, anyway?

You may have played the most hilarious pranks, Christofer; but this one's not funny.

I don't believe he's gone. I don't believe this isn't another crazy adventure of his-- like when he got himself stuck in Cuba a couple weeks ago. I just want my phone to ring and for someone to tell me that the joke is over.

And then maybe I can begin to sort through all the emotions I'm feeling right now.